I went shopping for little e today. I've bought things for her before: a bedding set for her room, a dollie for under the Christmas tree.
Still, today's shopping trip was different. Today, I picked out something for little e to wear. Something that will touch her skin. Something that I will place on her little body.
They are just hair bands and bows. Still, for me they are a symbol. A demonstration of my faith. With our court date only 20 days away I'm starting to let myself believe that little e will really be ours. That this sweet lonely child half-way around the world will be our daughter.
It's a scary leap of faith. I don't believe it entirely yet. So many things can still go wrong. But I've taken a step forward. I have hair bows that one day soon I hope to place on her little head.
I hope. I am full of hope.
(Dora the cat is full of hope, too. She thinks the hair bands are for her. And the crib, too).
Okay, you have way more restraint that I do (LOL)...I've purchased so much stuff for Ella already - clothing, shoes, blankie, crib bedding, a dresser, and a crib will be bought next week...the shopping helps ease my "waiting to bring her home" anxiety! At least that's what I tell myself ;-)
ReplyDeleteI think the hair ribons are very cute...that's one thing I haven't bought "yet". LOL
So pretty~ enjoy getting ready for your little sweetheart!
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